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Contemporary Girl

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a girl stood on the street corner clutching a red balloon and an old, beat-up suitcase.
she was looking off into the distance, above the people and the skyscrapers and the look of determination on her face was so resolute that noone bothered telling her to get out of the way or that she was holding up sidewalk traffic or anything.
she was vivacious, religious, and ready to take on the world.

the dazzling city lights,
the dreary trash- covered streets,
she loved it.

people at work would ask her if she was thinking about ever going home.
she would reply "Home? like with Jesus Christ, my family, and anyone else I love ? I suppose I will go to Heaven whenever God decides that I've been out here away from home for much too long."
they would shake their heads in amazement and try to stop the jolt of sympathy they felt
while she managed a smile.

on the outside she was confidence, beauty, and building a very steady staircase upwards.
on the inside she was empty, excluding prayers and dreams.
she was surrounded by glossy ads and pictures that cluttered the space around her and caused her to look at every item of life with an interrupted view.
they helped her celebrate her eating disorder year after year.

pretty pretty pretty pretty
     pretty pretty pretty
          pretty pretty
    an unachievable class

superficial, shallow still
the only words that she could occupy.

She liked to go for walks at midnight.
to breathe, and because in these moments, she felt like she owned the city. owned something.
she would take a few steps humming,
then stop and kick a pebble,
and whisper
"God. God. God.
I'm the worst kind of failure, ruining the most important thing you've given me: life.
I feel like I'm dying.
I've been on my way home for a long time.
I'm just speeding up the process."
things went even faster and she finally left the city.





People like to remember her standing on the street corner
with the balloon and the ambition and the hope.
the girl who looked like she'd had a glimpse of eternity and knew she was it.


I wanted to stay away from her.
I wanted to be her.
I was her.
Run-ons, spelling errors..
Gimme a break. I'm submitting this quick in school.

(some of the things you'd think were errors are put in place on purpose)


BUT.. FINALLY.
=D
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yournotsotypicalDORK's avatar
woah, thats amazing.
good work :highfive: